Another year, another Valentine’s Day, but as the years go by I’m learning just how I really feel about this “holiday”. When I was in high school, if you were single on Valentine’s Day, which I always was, you were considered pathetic. What’s worse is that you didn’t even have to have other people let you know how sad you were considered, because kids were beating themselves up over it – again, myself included. There’s some stigma about this day of the year that being single is some horrible thing to be shunned; if you’re in a relationship, it’s sure to be the most romantic day of the year, but if you’re alone then you might as well curl up on the couch with a tub of ice cream and cry into your blanket while watching sappy romantic movies alone, pining for what could’ve been. Umm…no thanks.
Posts Tagged “Reflection”
Today marks my two year anniversary with Keith. I’m sitting here wondering how it could be possible that it’s been two years since we found each other. It’s hard to remember times without him, and impossible to think of a future without him. I think of things that I still want to do in my life (and there’s a lot) and Keith is there in all my imaginings. He’s a solid fixture in my life and I like knowing that. Two years like a long time to some, but when I think about being with him it all seems to blur together. And in the best way possible.
I’ve been thinking about my relationship with my dad a lot recently. Not really sure why, but it’s been on my mind more than usual. My parents were divorced when I was very young, so I lived with my mom and visited my dad whenever possible. I didn’t get to see him as much as I would’ve liked as a kid, and I remember not being happy about that when I was younger, but I also remember all the good memories we had together. He wasn’t always around, but only because the situation didn’t really work out like that. But he’s always been a good dad, and was always there for me. And to this day, he still is.
I know it’s been a long time since my last update, so let me first apologize for my absence and promise to try harder to be more present on my blog. I’ve had tons of things happen over the past few months that should’ve been written about, but I just couldn’t bring myself to sit down and hash it out. But a few weeks ago, while I was browsing the news feed on Facebook, I saw someone that I went to middle school with had posted a link to an obituary. When I clicked the link and read the obituary, I realized it was someone I had gone to school with all those years ago, and I just read the article in shock.
Another year passes by, and another approaches just around the riverbend…I mean the corner. I’ve had some serious ups and downs this year, but looking around I know that lots of other people have too. I can’t pretend that my life was awful and that “2009 was the worst year ever” like I’ve heard so many times in the past few days. With social networking being what it is, Facebook and Twitter have been teeming with all the same-old-same-old colloquialisms about how this year was just awful and that hopefully next year will be better. But these are the same people who said the exact same thing last year, and will say the same next year. I had a mix of good and bad, but I won’t forget either to favor the other.