Tonight was my 10 year high school reunion, and I’m very content in saying that I stayed home and made dinner, watched TV and played the new Mario Kart 8 on the Wii U. Somewhat a symbol of the kind of life I have come to lead – laid back and relaxed at home, no focus on going out or big parties/gatherings. This isn’t really where I thought I’d be 10 years after high school, but I can honestly say it’s much better than where I thought my life would take me.
Posts Tagged “Friendship”
May 31 2014
Things have been crazy the past couple months. When I started this blog, I told myself I’d be updating all the time, but as you can see by the date of my last entry, this hasn’t worked out too well as of late. Allow me to explain. I was laid off from my job of almost 3 years at the end of December, I’m under pressure at school to maintain an A average in a class where a C is something to be prayed for, my car has required almost $1000 in repairs, and I’ve done it all without the friend I thought I’d always have at my side. The only bright spot in all this has been Keith. It’s nice to know that even when we both have horrible days, we’re always there for each other at the end of it all to sit with and talk and just enjoy the company. I don’t know how I got by without him in the past.
Remember when you were young and your parents told you that most of the people you were best friends in high school would disappear from your life after high school? Remember not believing them? Mhmm. Now, do you remember when almost all those people disappeared? I do. I remember thinking I was so close with some people, and then when graduation came and I no longer saw them every day, things just started to fade. Then I made new friends in college and things seemed to be different. But ultimately, it was just the same.
Trust is a funny thing. It’s so hard to build up and so easy to destroy. My parents used to tell me this all the time and I never fully understood. I’d do something stupid and lie about it, and they’d express their disappointment at how I couldn’t be trusted. Then for weeks or even months I’d be good and tell the truth and they wouldn’t listen. Over time, trust can be earned back, but it can just as easily be swept away again. The more it happens, the more difficult it is to rebuild, until you finally just pack up and decide to place your trust elsewhere. I never really understood my parents and how they could seem so hurt over something as trivial as a lie. That was then. This is now. And one very large deception has called so much into question in my life.
Sep 09 2008
Over the years I’ve had to part company with a few friends and many casual acquaintances. Everyone has. It’s an unavoidable part of life – you can’t stay in touch with everyone even if you want to. Granted, some of the people I’ve lost touch with were because I made the decision to sever the ties and move on, but sometimes it was simply because we lost touch over time. I’m now faced with the harsh reality that I’m soon going to have to say goodbye to a friend that I’m closer to than anyone else. Not because either of us want to, but because he’s leaving the continent to start his family and take his life in a new direction. It’s less than a year away, but I’m trying not to think about it just yet; because when I do, I feel like I’m losing one of the best people in my life right now.