Another year passes by, and another approaches just around the riverbend…I mean the corner. I’ve had some serious ups and downs this year, but looking around I know that lots of other people have too. I can’t pretend that my life was awful and that “2009 was the worst year ever” like I’ve heard so many times in the past few days. With social networking being what it is, Facebook and Twitter have been teeming with all the same-old-same-old colloquialisms about how this year was just awful and that hopefully next year will be better. But these are the same people who said the exact same thing last year, and will say the same next year. I had a mix of good and bad, but I won’t forget either to favor the other.
Archive for the “Life” CategorySometimes when I walk past a mirror, I actually do a double-take at the face staring back at me. I see my face, and I stare as if looking at a stranger. When I lock eyes with myself, I still see a little boy. I see the teenager who had no idea where his life was going, or how he was going to make it on his own. And the boy in the mirror looks back at me and seems to ask if I’m doing it right, living up to the ideal of what he thought it would be like. When I first decided to write this blog entry, I had it all planned out what I was going to say. I thought of so many different things to talk about and different memories to write about, but now that I’m sitting here ready to write it all out, it escapes me. I’ve been staring at the screen for a few moments with a blank stare, wondering where all of that went. I’m a pretty open person most of the time; I’d go so far as to say I actually rarely keep anything to myself. My mouth runs non-stop at any given time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t keep things to myself. Everybody has things they keep to themselves and share with only a select few, and this is one of those things. Something I don’t talk about very often because I just don’t know what to say about any of it. But for the first time, I’m gonna try. I’ve never really given it much thought, and when I realized that last night it bothered me. I need to think about it and remember it all. This will help. I hope. Today would’ve been my little sister’s 12th birthday. Well the weekend has come and gone, but I’m sad to see it go. I spent the weekend constantly on the go, but in the best possible way. I spent it with family and friends having a great time. Sunday was my 6 month-iversary with Keith, and Monday was my birthday. Saturday was spent with different friends just relaxing and having fun, but Sunday was reserved for Keith and I to be together on the special day, and he even took off work Monday so he could be with me on my birthday in a way that nobody else ever really has. It was wonderful in every way it could have been.
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Where does the time go?Posted by Dean in Life, Work, tags: American Economy, Job SearchI can’t believe that it’s been almost two months since I last sat down to write. When I first started this blog I didn’t foresee a time when weekly updates wouldn’t be the norm, but lately I’ve felt like I barely have time to get things done, let alone to sit down and babble about whatever’s on my mind. It’s funny in a not-so-funny way, but ever since I lost my job and gained an extra 40 hours a week, I seem to have less time to get things done than before. Did I somehow actually lose time? Or has more just come up to fill in the gaps? Or have I just lost the will to do anything but watch the hands on the clock spend ’round and ’round? |
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