It’s that time of year again.  December has turned over into January, and a new year is on the rise.  It’s refreshing yet frightening.  One can never tell what the new year will hold, but I am going to try to remain optimistic.  Then again, that’s cutting into my so-to-say “resolutions” that I’ve laid out for myself.  Each year I set some down for myself, and each year I forget all about them before February.  I suppose that’s typical.  That’s why this year I don’t want to make them strict and specific.  Just ideals that I want to hold myself to.

First and foremost, I want to be a little more healthy.  Yes, it’s the same resolution as just about everyone else in the world is making right now.  I’m not promising myself that I’ll hit the gym 5 times a week and eat less than 1500 calories a day.  I’m just telling myself that I need to cut down on fast food and replace even the diet soda with plain bottled water.  Not every day, but often.  I want to go back to the gym again.  I’ve been paying for a membership that I’ve refused to use lately and that’s just idiotic.  I’ve got to get serious about being more healthy.

In the past I’ve always made a resolution to find someone to begin a relationship with.  While I no longer need to make that particular resolution, I do intend to keep working at the one I have.  By no means is finding someone the end of the effort.  I want to make sure I’m the best possible person I could be both for Keith and for myself.  The effort isn’t over just because we’re together.  As anyone in a relationship can tell you, that’s when the real work begins.  I want to continue being the man that makes him happy, and I’m going to work to make sure that doesn’t change.

I’ve always been pessimistic and lately it’s really been bothering me.  I have a lot on my plate and I’m stressing out, but I can’t let it get me down like it has been.  I have to realize that stressing out and looking at things negatively isn’t going to help anything, and will most likely only serve to drive others away from me and that’s the last thing I want right now.  I simply have to take a deep breath and stop being so negative.  I think I’ll work in baby steps though.  For now, I’ll just worry about not vocalizing it as much; once I’ve got that down, then I’ll actually start changing my thought patterns.

That’s really all I have.  Nothing drastic.  Nothing major.  2008 taught me a lot, and I’m sure 2009 will as well.  Life is an adventure, and I’m anxious to see what 2009 holds for me and those around me.