With the beginning of the Fall semester this year I tailored down my schedule to only one class for multiple reasons, one of the main ones being that I felt it would decrease my stress.  To a certain extent it’s working, but I fear that it’s at the sake of my sanity.  At the beginning of every class my professor comes in and puts up a quote on the projector and has the whole class read it aloud.  It’s something about finding a career by finding yourself, blah blah blah.  I feel like I’m in elementary school reciting the pledge of allegiance every day, or in an alcoholics anonymous meeting repeating the same thing every week but secretly never meaning it.

The whole point of the class is to find what career path you are best suited for and encourage you to pursue it.  Part of that is accomplished by various personality tests which are then used in comparison to the job you currently occupy to determine whether or not you’re suited to be where you are in life right now.  Most of the time the answer is no.  How convenient.  It all seems so hokey to me.  I don’t like putting myself up on an examination table to be poked and prodded only to be told that I’ve made dumb choices in life and need to take a whole new direction in life.  If that’s really the case, chances are I’ll get to the point where I can make that decision myself without having to sit through a ridiculous 15 week course where I repeat a dumb mantra every class meeting.

I’m all for self-improvement and working to reach your full potential, but I fully believe that I have the ability to do that on my own.  I know what my opinion of my current career choice is, and I know where I want to be in 5 years.  Heck, I know where I want to be in 10 years.  Maybe for some people it’s not that easy.  I just feel incredibly restricted in this course, like I’m being told by someone that doesn’t know me what I should be doing with my life based on a personality test I had to take for the course.  Didn’t she get the memo that I don’t like being told what to do?  I’m pretty sure I’ve faxed it to anyone I come in contact with more than once just to make sure they’re aware.

On top of all that, the class is very much interaction oriented, and every class includes a large amount of discussion and ends in some form of group exercises where you’re lumped in with other people of your “type” and you all discuss things that you supposedly do the same way.  What does this mean to me?  It means she specifically states in her syllabus that no laptops are allowed and cell phones must be turned off.  I will grudgingly abide by the former, but she can pry my blackberry from my cold dead hands before I turn it off and put it away.

I have extreme ADD and do not like having to focus on only one thing at a time.  My mind races and I can’t concentrate and I’ll quickly lose interest and my mind will wander.  However, throughout my years of undergraduate and graduate studies, I’ve found that having my laptop helps me to divide my focus and enable me to actually pay better attention.  I know it sounds strange to say that splitting my focus makes me more attentive, but it’s true.  My mind works much better when it’s chugging away at three or four things at a time (ie, listening to the professor, surfing internet on laptop, texting on blackberry, etc.), and without that my mind races with no real goal in sight.  Suffice it to say, without my laptop in this class I find myself staring at the walls and not being able to focus on the professor for 3 hours as she rambles on and on about how extroverted she is.  I get it – you’re loud and happy about it.  Can I play on my computer now?

4 Responses to “I can’t believe I paid $1100 for this”
  1. Evil Stepmom says:

    You still fax? How antiquated! I thought you were more ‘modern’ than that. :(
    And you got that ADD from your Father!

  2. Yourleastfavorite:) says:

    lol, your something special mr. i love it. and from what i read, i think i would have to agree with you about that class and that teacher. dont let the man…or in this case, the woman, bring you down!!…ya…

  3. Kelsey Little says:

    Stress is created when the brain over-rides the bodies desire to beat the stuffing out of someone who desperately needs it.
    What do they say 95% of us fit the standard mold and then we learn that 5% of the people make the majority of the money. Never let it bother you, I would guess that you’re in that 5% and it takes that difference to make the difference.
    I was told that when it comes to reading the brain needs at least 450 words a minute to holds its undivided attention. Most of us read more around the 250 wpm and that is why are mind will wander / daydream when we are reading.
    My father told me once “that collage is a place that teaches use how to think”. Then we go into the real world and, with an ability to think, we can make are way.

  4. M.O.M. says:

    Tolerance and acceptance…we all want it given to us based on our intentions, but we dispense it based on other people’s actions. Ahhh, the human factor.
    PS You don’t have ADD (you can ask your Grandma Diane, ‘cuz she’s the one that told us you didn’t) Guess you’ll have to find another excuse

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